My First Crush :D

Everyone had a first love or first crush.. I remember mine.. Well, i started to like him when i was in Primary 4.. "PRIMARY 4" hahaha.. I started to like him because he's so kind, cute and always make me smile whenever i feel down.. In our class, our classmates called us the "perfect couple" cos' at the end of our name is the same.. =p

      So, one day i wanted to tell him that i like him.. By the help of my friends(girls), they gave me an idea to write on a piece of paper about my feelings.. =) So, i did!! I wrote the letter telling him that I've been liking him, and i wanted to know does he have the same feelings~ And so.. i gave him the letter and asked him to read it at home.. On the next day, i'm too SHY, so i didn't attend school!! *poor me!!* then 2days after that, i went to school and everything is normal.. Except him~ he keep on smiling and looking at me.. I didn't receive any letter from him =( 

     Then during break time, i went to the canteen and I've been ignoring him.. I didn't talk to him during class and during break time.. Then, my friends(the one who help me to let out my feelings to him) told me to open my small note book.. Then i ask why, she said "just open it.. he wrote something.. but, not now.. at home".. I'm So curious! LIKE VERY CURIOUS! Then when i reached home, i look through my small notebook and then......... THERE'S NOTHING! I look through every pages but i don't see any writings.. =( Then i'm so disappointed.. VERY DISAPPOINTED! 

    So, on the next day my friend ask what does he wrote.. I, disappointedly, sadly said "there's nothing" and she didn't get it! Then i told her that there's nothing on my small notebook.. then she said, she saw it with her own eyes that he wrote something on my notebook and he ask my friend to tell me to read it at home... And again, i take out my small notebook, me and my friend look for it together.. THEN! we saw it!! *arrgh.. i skipped lots of pages that's why i didn't find it!!*

    He wrote    "hey Malisa.. is it true what you wrote to me? you like me? well, i like you too.. but Aria*not her real name* asked me not to be with you.. I don't know why.. but i like you.. i hope we can be together.. so, i think that's it.. =)" then he draw a Heart shape.. =)

     For your information, Aria*not her real name* is my classmate! She always "stole" everything from me.. Not my things.. But my Precious e.g : my admires, a diary that i aim to buy and etc... So, a month later, i saw Aria sit near "him" during class, went to the canteen together and etc... Then i just ignore them.. until now.. i hate it when i'm having a crush with someone and i don't have any abilities to tell them~ =( 

   Now, im in Form 5.. Me and Him still on a same school.. i always bumps into him at school.. During the afternoon, while im waiting for my Father/brother to pick me up, we talked, we chat, we laugh.. =) So, the question is:

*Do i still have feelings toward him?

= YES i do! =/ i still like him.. that's the saddest part of my life! It's been 9years!! 9years i have feelings towards him.. =( 

SO! i think that's it~ Sorry if my English is BROKEN! HAHAHA.. i'm not good in English! so what! you'rs not perfect either! =p *just kidding*

FOR READING! =D