Love that never meant to be...

Hello guys!! Oh my Gucci, i haven't update for so LONG! i'm busy this lately.. Ever since our maid went back to her hometown, I've become a maid and baby-sitting my nephews and niece..


So anyway, i got lots of story to share.. How complicated my life this lately.. Love-life, it's killing me.. seriously.. It does... This is how it happens..

Last few months, i added this guy, let me called him Harry.. ;) So, Harry is my crush.. i had a crush on him when i was in Form 4(which he just moved to our school), first time i saw him, i feel like wanna know him, but, i'm to shy.. ;) its just a lil crush, so i don't take it seriously.. But every time i saw him at school, i got shy.. i have no idea why.. He didn't know me that time.. so, a few years past, till this year, i started knew him well.. How? i added him on facebook, and we started our conversation about sport cars(our same interest).. Then, after that, we're moving on to the next step.. we wall-ed each other then we talked about what we do at home.. how many siblings we had and etc..


I thought my feeling toward him way back in 2009 is fading but, actually its not.. so, i keep on falling for him day by day.. we met in the library every free period we had.. we talked, we fooling around.. Till one day, sh*t just happen... My EX-best-friend(let me call her Fiona here) fall in love with him too.. Then, in order to see my "best friend" happy, i planned to back off from Harry's life.. And i help Fiona to get closed to Harry.. Harry don't want me to back off from his life because that time he admit that he like's me too.. so, ever since he said that he liked me too, i started to trust him and stayed beside him.. I tried to tell Fiona the truth about me and him.. Then, i don't have any courage to do that.. So, he's being a man, he said he's going to do it.. He said to Fiona that he had someone else.. In order to save my friendship, he didn't tell Fiona that "someone" is me..So, a few days past and everything went well TILL my friends backstabbing me.. They told Fiona everything about me and Harry.. 



Fiona gets mad and she started to called me Bitch, backstabber and etc.. Fiona also involve Harry in this situation.. Well, because of him we had a fight... Well actually, it's not my fault.. It's Harry's fault.. If he just listen to me and let me go, this thing wouldn't happen.. RIGHT? So, Fiona start to spread bad stuff about me till my friends ignoring me.. Till one day, Harry and I conference Fiona, and we're trying our best to fix the situation, but we failed.. Fiona broke our friendship and she continuing hating me... Then a few weeks after that, Harry and i had a huge misunderstanding... I lied to him that i'm in love with someone else, and i change me relationship status to <in a relationship> with someone.. Then he's freaking out.. Actually, i did that because i wanted to surprise him.. I bought him a tie(since he love to wear suits) and gave it to him as a surprise gift.. But it turned out miserable.. What i planned is not working.. so im very thankful to my friend Finn for helping me get things right.. On the next day, i got a chance to met him and gave him the tie..


At first, he don't want to accept the tie.. But i force him to accept it.. And i said, if you don't want it, throw it away.. It's his.. Not mine.. And i told him if he don't want to accept that tie, that means he's not forgiving me for what i did the other day.. So, he accept it.. A few day after that, i can felt that he's changing.. So, he told me the truth that he's actually accepting someone's love right after i hurt him.. luckily, all this time i don't put too much hopes on him.. Ever since our first met, i don't put to much hopes on him.. if he's about to leave me, that's okay.. But when he mentioned that we're actually have that "something" between us, i started to put small amount of my hopes on him.. But, my hopes fades day by day after he told me the truth.. Then i said to him that i should back-off for real this time.. And i can see that he's actually agree.. So, i back off from his life, ignoring him and i even planned something to make him hate me.. AND I DID IT!! YEYY!! 


Now, i got my boyfriend that i can trust... He's the one who comfort me when i'm sad.. He's the one who made my day.. And he's the one who fixed my broken heart.. Now that Harry's happy with his girlfriend, and i should too.. He's no longer remain in my heart nor mind.. He's not my sweetest dream anymore.. He's now my worst nightmares.. Ever since i'm not with him, i always wake up to a nightmares.. But not anymore.. :)




I've moved on.. :)

I'm just hoping one day, if i met him, i wanted us to be strangers again like we used to be way back in 2009.. And Harry, i appreciate what you've done.. Being such a Man settling our problems and Thank You for being caring all this time.. You hurt me and that makes me more stronger than before.. I will always keep our memories together and i would never erase that.. I'm just hoping that you'd be happy with her and your relationship would last forever.. Take a good care of her and don't you ever hurt her like you hurt me before.. 






Boy, We're Not Meant To Be..

My First Crush :D

Everyone had a first love or first crush.. I remember mine.. Well, i started to like him when i was in Primary 4.. "PRIMARY 4" hahaha.. I started to like him because he's so kind, cute and always make me smile whenever i feel down.. In our class, our classmates called us the "perfect couple" cos' at the end of our name is the same.. =p

      So, one day i wanted to tell him that i like him.. By the help of my friends(girls), they gave me an idea to write on a piece of paper about my feelings.. =) So, i did!! I wrote the letter telling him that I've been liking him, and i wanted to know does he have the same feelings~ And so.. i gave him the letter and asked him to read it at home.. On the next day, i'm too SHY, so i didn't attend school!! *poor me!!* then 2days after that, i went to school and everything is normal.. Except him~ he keep on smiling and looking at me.. I didn't receive any letter from him =( 

     Then during break time, i went to the canteen and I've been ignoring him.. I didn't talk to him during class and during break time.. Then, my friends(the one who help me to let out my feelings to him) told me to open my small note book.. Then i ask why, she said "just open it.. he wrote something.. but, not now.. at home".. I'm So curious! LIKE VERY CURIOUS! Then when i reached home, i look through my small notebook and then......... THERE'S NOTHING! I look through every pages but i don't see any writings.. =( Then i'm so disappointed.. VERY DISAPPOINTED! 

    So, on the next day my friend ask what does he wrote.. I, disappointedly, sadly said "there's nothing" and she didn't get it! Then i told her that there's nothing on my small notebook.. then she said, she saw it with her own eyes that he wrote something on my notebook and he ask my friend to tell me to read it at home... And again, i take out my small notebook, me and my friend look for it together.. THEN! we saw it!! *arrgh.. i skipped lots of pages that's why i didn't find it!!*

    He wrote    "hey Malisa.. is it true what you wrote to me? you like me? well, i like you too.. but Aria*not her real name* asked me not to be with you.. I don't know why.. but i like you.. i hope we can be together.. so, i think that's it.. =)" then he draw a Heart shape.. =)

     For your information, Aria*not her real name* is my classmate! She always "stole" everything from me.. Not my things.. But my Precious e.g : my admires, a diary that i aim to buy and etc... So, a month later, i saw Aria sit near "him" during class, went to the canteen together and etc... Then i just ignore them.. until now.. i hate it when i'm having a crush with someone and i don't have any abilities to tell them~ =( 

   Now, im in Form 5.. Me and Him still on a same school.. i always bumps into him at school.. During the afternoon, while im waiting for my Father/brother to pick me up, we talked, we chat, we laugh.. =) So, the question is:

*Do i still have feelings toward him?

= YES i do! =/ i still like him.. that's the saddest part of my life! It's been 9years!! 9years i have feelings towards him.. =( 

SO! i think that's it~ Sorry if my English is BROKEN! HAHAHA.. i'm not good in English! so what! you'rs not perfect either! =p *just kidding*

FOR READING! =D

Giving Up

Giving up is not A GOOD DECISION.. You try, you fail.. you try, you fail.. but the TRUE FAILURE is when you GIVING UP..

We live only once.. but if you work it right, once is enough. Working smart and hard.. we must have a confident.. Confident we can do it... No matter how hard it is.. Life is so AWESOME and BEAUTIFUL when we know how to live it.. 

i once wanted to give up when i've find out i didn't get anything for my O'level exam.. But luckily my family/cousins is there to support me.. and they wanted me to continue my school.. Even though im going to "waste" my 1year.. But, it'll worth it.. :)

I don't care how many years i should spend to get more success~ As long as i can study to achieve more success.. My dad always told me,

     "You're still a teenager, you're still a student.. there's no need to shy about the failure.. You even MORE shy if you stay at home and do nothing~"

My dad.. He's my hero... The greatest hero of all~ i love you Dad.. and i love Mom too~ I love Both Of You So much..

So yeah.. GIVING UP is NOT the answer for a bright future.. :)

                                                           

                                           ONE DAY, IF YOU'RE SUCCESS AND GET TO THE TOP 

 

DON'T FORGET TO LOOK DOWN!

                                                  

    

  CHOOSE YOUR OWN WAY.. SUCCESS OR FAILURE~

                                            








                                             AND MY ANSWER IS.........................................

Fact about Girls/Guys ;D

Girl's Fact:


1) If your Girlfriends/friend/sisters/cousins*girl* MAD at you(guy/boys) DON'T EVER! like EVER! said "are you having your Period?" Cause if you do.. BE PREPARED BOYS! Coz' she's gonna make you more suffering!


2) If she said she's fine/okay, actually she's not.. You should understand her and care for her.. :)


3) When u break a girls heart, she still feels it every time when u run into each other..


4) When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.


5) When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful. *true to me :p *


6) When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.




Guys's Fact:


1) When a guy calls you, he wants to be with you


2) When a guy is quiet, He's listening to you...


3) When a guy is not arguing, He realizes he's wrong


4) When a guy stares at you, he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do


5) When you're laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world *teehee*


6) When a (good) guy tells you he loves you, he means it..


7) When a guy says, "I miss you", he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else..

                                              

Grenade Cover (Bruno Mars) - Joseph Vincent

Joseph Vincent~ <3

Hold My Hand Cover (MJ & Akon)- Joseph Vincent & JDC

Life~

Hi Guys~

so, this is my new blog *the old one i forgot the password (teehee)*

Anyway~ where to start~? so yeah... i start blogging again! *clapping hands* thanks to my friend Hakim for dragging me blogging again~ :p

so, my life this lately, it's a lil' bit complicated.. 

first of all, i fail my O'level exam! i Didn't get any O's.. Then this year (2011) i'm taking June and November.. I'm going back to my old school~ meeting the old friends~ and a new life of course~ and a new goal~ :D

second of all, everything change ever-since me and my beloved Raqien fight.. A BIG FIGHT.. :( well.. seems like i need to focus on my studies first and give him a "little bit space"... 

SO! my point is... for my blog this year (till onwards) i'm going to write my very own story that i wrote.. just a story bout a teenage life, family and future! so yeah.. hope you guys will enjoy it.. 

Thank You!