So anyway, i got lots of story to share.. How complicated my life this lately.. Love-life, it's killing me.. seriously.. It does... This is how it happens..
Last few months, i added this guy, let me called him Harry.. ;) So, Harry is my crush.. i had a crush on him when i was in Form 4(which he just moved to our school), first time i saw him, i feel like wanna know him, but, i'm to shy.. ;) its just a lil crush, so i don't take it seriously.. But every time i saw him at school, i got shy.. i have no idea why.. He didn't know me that time.. so, a few years past, till this year, i started knew him well.. How? i added him on facebook, and we started our conversation about sport cars(our same interest).. Then, after that, we're moving on to the next step.. we wall-ed each other then we talked about what we do at home.. how many siblings we had and etc..
I thought my feeling toward him way back in 2009 is fading but, actually its not.. so, i keep on falling for him day by day.. we met in the library every free period we had.. we talked, we fooling around.. Till one day, sh*t just happen... My EX-best-friend(let me call her Fiona here) fall in love with him too.. Then, in order to see my "best friend" happy, i planned to back off from Harry's life.. And i help Fiona to get closed to Harry.. Harry don't want me to back off from his life because that time he admit that he like's me too.. so, ever since he said that he liked me too, i started to trust him and stayed beside him.. I tried to tell Fiona the truth about me and him.. Then, i don't have any courage to do that.. So, he's being a man, he said he's going to do it.. He said to Fiona that he had someone else.. In order to save my friendship, he didn't tell Fiona that "someone" is me..So, a few days past and everything went well TILL my friends backstabbing me.. They told Fiona everything about me and Harry..
Fiona gets mad and she started to called me Bitch, backstabber and etc.. Fiona also involve Harry in this situation.. Well, because of him we had a fight... Well actually, it's not my fault.. It's Harry's fault.. If he just listen to me and let me go, this thing wouldn't happen.. RIGHT? So, Fiona start to spread bad stuff about me till my friends ignoring me.. Till one day, Harry and I conference Fiona, and we're trying our best to fix the situation, but we failed.. Fiona broke our friendship and she continuing hating me... Then a few weeks after that, Harry and i had a huge misunderstanding... I lied to him that i'm in love with someone else, and i change me relationship status to <in a relationship> with someone.. Then he's freaking out.. Actually, i did that because i wanted to surprise him.. I bought him a tie(since he love to wear suits) and gave it to him as a surprise gift.. But it turned out miserable.. What i planned is not working.. so im very thankful to my friend Finn for helping me get things right.. On the next day, i got a chance to met him and gave him the tie..
At first, he don't want to accept the tie.. But i force him to accept it.. And i said, if you don't want it, throw it away.. It's his.. Not mine.. And i told him if he don't want to accept that tie, that means he's not forgiving me for what i did the other day.. So, he accept it.. A few day after that, i can felt that he's changing.. So, he told me the truth that he's actually accepting someone's love right after i hurt him.. luckily, all this time i don't put too much hopes on him.. Ever since our first met, i don't put to much hopes on him.. if he's about to leave me, that's okay.. But when he mentioned that we're actually have that "something" between us, i started to put small amount of my hopes on him.. But, my hopes fades day by day after he told me the truth.. Then i said to him that i should back-off for real this time.. And i can see that he's actually agree.. So, i back off from his life, ignoring him and i even planned something to make him hate me.. AND I DID IT!! YEYY!!
Now, i got my boyfriend that i can trust... He's the one who comfort me when i'm sad.. He's the one who made my day.. And he's the one who fixed my broken heart.. Now that Harry's happy with his girlfriend, and i should too.. He's no longer remain in my heart nor mind.. He's not my sweetest dream anymore.. He's now my worst nightmares.. Ever since i'm not with him, i always wake up to a nightmares.. But not anymore.. :)
I've moved on.. :)
I'm just hoping one day, if i met him, i wanted us to be strangers again like we used to be way back in 2009.. And Harry, i appreciate what you've done.. Being such a Man settling our problems and Thank You for being caring all this time.. You hurt me and that makes me more stronger than before.. I will always keep our memories together and i would never erase that.. I'm just hoping that you'd be happy with her and your relationship would last forever.. Take a good care of her and don't you ever hurt her like you hurt me before..
Boy, We're Not Meant To Be..
